why?

Why do I always fall for the wrong guy?

blah, lifes frustrating :/

soooooo....

today was soo fun.
:/

during lunch me, aimee and kierra were standing in line and K brought up the Twilight movie and was like "So when are we going?"
And then A was all "Wait. She's going? Why? I'm sick of her butting into all of my plans"

Me: "Yea, she's coming, I mean she is my friend."

A: "Fine, if she's coming I'm not coming."

Me: "Okay, well I guess you're not coming then."

A: "Fine. I'll go with someone else then."

Seriously? Do you honestly think that because you threaten to not come I'm going to uninvite her? And, well I want her to come. You're being childish. Plus, lately she's been a better friend to me then you have. She doesn't constantly talk over me, or just plain ignore me. She doesn't call me and then have to go because precious Johnny or Chelsea calls. Or has to hang up but promises to call back but then doesn't because Johnny or Chelsea called or came over. And then when you actually do call me, you're constantly talking about them or you and I can't get a world in. And then you're all "Caity, you're my best friend, you're such a good listener." No, I just don't ever get a chance to talk. Do you ever think that I may have something to say? That I may have problems of my own? That for once I just need someone to listen to ME??

Now don't get me wrong, I have NO problem with Johnny or Chelsea, they seem great. We probably wouldn't talk at all if it weren't for you, but that isn't because I have a problem with them. But, lately I do have a problem with you. But I don't want to say anything because no matter what you are my best friend. But if you keep it up, you're going to look back and I'm not going to be there. A person can only take so much before their done. And I don't know how much more I can take. Please, just stop, I don' want to lose you but I'm not going to keep putting myself through this. I deserve better.

Ugh, high school is a blast.

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And then came gym.

Today in gym we were playing pickleball. Which is okay, and I''m not terrible at it. So Bridgette and I were playing against Dom and Adam. Dom hit the ball towards me, and I know there was NO chance i was going to hit it, but I swung anyways, because I feel dumb letting it go past me without atleast trying to hit it. Well, that was a mistake. Cause all of a sudden,

POP!

There goes my shoulder. And let me tell you. that was the most painful thing i have ever felt. It hurt so bad that my vision clouded over. And then,

POP! again.

Okay, it's back in place. 2nd most painful thing I've ever felt.

So then I start crying and blubbering like a little baby and go to mr. baker and then go to the health room, where the lady sends me home. Which kinda sucks, because I missed my eighth hour ceramics class, which is my favorite. But my unlce Steve went and got me starbucks because he's amazing like that. So yea, my shoulder's killing me. So writing this right now was probably not the smartest thing to do, lol.

oh, I almost forgot, here's a quote for the day...

"Life; life’s not what you take. It’s not about the promises you make. It’s not about the friends you might have made or the love that is gone. Life is what you give. It’s not about the stupid things you did. It’s not about the way things could have been. It’s about moving on. It’s all about you."

Oh My, It's The Quote(s) Of The Day! 11.12.08

"I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing."

-Agatha Christie

"I wish there was some way for us to go back and undo the past. But there wasn't. There was nothing we could do. So I just stayed silent and trying to telepathically communicate how sorry I was about what had happened. And I thought of all the grief and sadness and f'ed up suffering in the world, and it made me want to escape. I wished with all my heart that we could just leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically... disappear."

-Mysterious Skin

"Can you imagine what it feels like to have someone sit you down and tell you that you're dying? The gravity of that, hmm? Then the clock's ticking for you. In a split second your awe is cracked open. You look at things differently - smell things differently. You savor everything be it a glass of water or a walk in the park. But most people have the luxury of not knowing when that clock's going to go off. And the irony of it is that that keeps them from really living their life. It keeps them not from drinking that glass of water but from ever really tasting it."

- Saw 2

"Childhood is what you spend the rest of your life trying to overcome. That's what momma always says. She says that beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, but it's the middle that counts the most. Try to remember that when you find yourself at a new beginning. Just give hope a chance to float up. And it will."

- Hope Floats

YAY!YAY!YAY!

I'M GOING TO THE ALL TIME LOW CONCERT NEXT FRIDAY WITH MY AMAZING FRIEND CHRISTINA!!!!!



YAY!

Oh My, It's The Quote Of The day!

Okay, I missed a bunch of days so I'll going to post a couple.

"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes. It's a universal truth. But the good part is, you get to decide how you're gonna mess it up."

- Marilyn Monroe

"I used to hate this town. I used to hate every single blade of grass on every hill, but he taught me so much. He taught me that it's not the job of this town to make me feel happy. It's not its fault that I don't fit in. It doesn't matter where you are in the world, because it's about where you are in your head. It's about the other world I inhabit. The world of dreams, hope, imagination, and memories."

- Cecila Ahern, If You Could See Me Now

"A friend of mine said to me: "You have to believe that life is more than the sum of its parts, kiddo." I remember it right down to the "kiddo" part. But when I think about what she said, the same thing always comes into my head: "What if you can't put the pieces together in the first place?"

-United States of Leland

"Think of a car driving through the night. The headlights only go a hundred or two hundred feet forward, and you can make it all the way from California to New York driving through the dark, because all you have to see is the next two hundred feet. And that's how life tends to unfold before us. If we just trust that the next two hundred feet will unfold after that, and the next two hundred feet will unfold after that, your life will keep unfolding. And it will eventually get you to the destination of whatever it is you truly want, because you want it."

- The Secret

so i read this book today...

So today I read Leaving Paradise by Simone Elkeles. It is an AMAZING book and I HIGHLY reccomend it. You will not regret it if you read it.

My favorite part is this:

Maggie: Are you following me?

Caleb: Yes.

Maggie: Why?

Caleb: Because you're where I want to be.


I honestly melted then. I wish a guy would say that to me, hat'd be perfect. But when I read it I kinda felt like an idiot. Because I read that part in study hall and I was sitting there grinning like an idiot. And my friend was like "What the heck Caity? Are you retarded or something?"

It was great. :] haha.


Oh, another thing is, I think Taylor Swift's video with the Shane Gray doll is awesome. I mean I love the Jonas Brothers and Joe, and Taylor, but the video was hilarious. :]