blah, lifes frustrating :/

soooooo....

today was soo fun.
:/

during lunch me, aimee and kierra were standing in line and K brought up the Twilight movie and was like "So when are we going?"
And then A was all "Wait. She's going? Why? I'm sick of her butting into all of my plans"

Me: "Yea, she's coming, I mean she is my friend."

A: "Fine, if she's coming I'm not coming."

Me: "Okay, well I guess you're not coming then."

A: "Fine. I'll go with someone else then."

Seriously? Do you honestly think that because you threaten to not come I'm going to uninvite her? And, well I want her to come. You're being childish. Plus, lately she's been a better friend to me then you have. She doesn't constantly talk over me, or just plain ignore me. She doesn't call me and then have to go because precious Johnny or Chelsea calls. Or has to hang up but promises to call back but then doesn't because Johnny or Chelsea called or came over. And then when you actually do call me, you're constantly talking about them or you and I can't get a world in. And then you're all "Caity, you're my best friend, you're such a good listener." No, I just don't ever get a chance to talk. Do you ever think that I may have something to say? That I may have problems of my own? That for once I just need someone to listen to ME??

Now don't get me wrong, I have NO problem with Johnny or Chelsea, they seem great. We probably wouldn't talk at all if it weren't for you, but that isn't because I have a problem with them. But, lately I do have a problem with you. But I don't want to say anything because no matter what you are my best friend. But if you keep it up, you're going to look back and I'm not going to be there. A person can only take so much before their done. And I don't know how much more I can take. Please, just stop, I don' want to lose you but I'm not going to keep putting myself through this. I deserve better.

Ugh, high school is a blast.

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And then came gym.

Today in gym we were playing pickleball. Which is okay, and I''m not terrible at it. So Bridgette and I were playing against Dom and Adam. Dom hit the ball towards me, and I know there was NO chance i was going to hit it, but I swung anyways, because I feel dumb letting it go past me without atleast trying to hit it. Well, that was a mistake. Cause all of a sudden,

POP!

There goes my shoulder. And let me tell you. that was the most painful thing i have ever felt. It hurt so bad that my vision clouded over. And then,

POP! again.

Okay, it's back in place. 2nd most painful thing I've ever felt.

So then I start crying and blubbering like a little baby and go to mr. baker and then go to the health room, where the lady sends me home. Which kinda sucks, because I missed my eighth hour ceramics class, which is my favorite. But my unlce Steve went and got me starbucks because he's amazing like that. So yea, my shoulder's killing me. So writing this right now was probably not the smartest thing to do, lol.

oh, I almost forgot, here's a quote for the day...

"Life; life’s not what you take. It’s not about the promises you make. It’s not about the friends you might have made or the love that is gone. Life is what you give. It’s not about the stupid things you did. It’s not about the way things could have been. It’s about moving on. It’s all about you."